Crap, I couldn't get the mix right, bleh. I think it's cuz my voice doesn't have much resonance and stuff. That's what I get for trying to teach myself how to do heavy metal screaming and fucking up my voice (there isn't any of that in here - I sound like the kid in The Shining when I try to do it, ha ha ha). Anyway, this is a song about the spirit of someone's grandmother being in Heaven and communicating with that person that even though life sucks, there's a purpose to it. You're not really allowed to know what that purpose is until after you're dead. Who knows if that's the case in real life or not?