We are one week out from our roadtrip and lots of stories have been coming up in my head; some of which involve losing the cat, getting a flat tire, squirrels which have the plague, my kids getting sick in the middle of nowhere, and / or not being able to find a grocery store which has the tortillas my daughter can eat (gluten allergy) and let's be honest that's all she wants to eat...ever. So much worry! Which then resulted in me trying to be super vigilant about being prepared around all the RV things, which then resulted in multiple trips to REI and Target leaving me feeling nothing but on edge and grumpy. Which is NOT what I would have expected since we're getting so close to something I've been looking forward to for months! So I noticed all this happening and attempted, in my very "I know how to handle this" way, to carve out some self-care time very early in the AM to recapture my chill. Well my friends, my kids had other plans and derailed my attempts 3 out of 3 times this week. No joke. It was bad and it all just kept getting worse and my mood followed. All the things I tried, to get myself back on track really weren't working (even the baby otters at the aquarium were a short lived blip of joy) because the truth is I was trying really really HARD. Like white knuckles hard to let go of how grouchy I was. And here's the thing trying really really hard doesn't work. Not even a little bit. It wasn't until everything reached a crescendo this morning involving two failed attempts at making coffee. The Universe was like "You, are a TEA DRINKER missy" that I realized it wasn't getting better because I wasn't even a little bit relaxed. Anything we create has to come from a very core place of chill of relaxed "letting it go" vibrationalness (is that a new word?). And I wasn't anywhere near that. I couldn't have sat down and painted a circle without being angry.  I had to set it all down in order to feel better -- the whole story about how I "needed" things to be. As Dr. Joe Dispenza says in his book "Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself" --"We don't attract what we want, we attract what we are". If what we want is to be peaceful, joyful, and feel generally awesome, than we have to find a way to embody those states not just with our thoughts but by letting go of the story that we are anything else....no matter what the day sends us and embodying those states wholeheartedly. Working on it over here; some strong cups of tea and a waffle may have added to my success. Love to you! xoxo