We can deny all these blessings all we want to publicly or even privately but they'll still be sitting here waiting on each one of us the moment we release all our unbelief. When did it ever become our responsibility to bless ourselves? We live in a society where the miraculous has to be completely explained. Try to take a step back and realize that God really exists and that He really wants to bless you. Stop making excuses that you are such a sinner and God doesn't want to bless you. That's ridiculous! Jesus didn't die for Himself. He died for your sins! What else will you accept as the reason you can't be blessed just like all the rest of God's people in the Bible. They were sinners just like you and me and still had God's richest and best! You can too! Doing without these wonderful blessings will not get you to heaven. This isn't proving anything to God except your own ignorance or unbelief. Taste and see that the Lord is Good! Its ok! He's got plenty to go around and especially for YOU!