Nix woke up one morning to find her baby boy had passed away in his sleep. A moment that changed everything for everyone. The sadness and pure mayhem that ensued is so unbelievable, we had to do two parts.This is part 1 of Nix's story. Stay tuned next week for part 2.Content warning: This episode discusses infant loss, sex work, drug and alcohol abuse, domestic violence, medical/autopsy details, suicide and extremely coarse language. Support resources are linked below.Miscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.au and SANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015Lifeline 13 11 141800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceFollow Nix on Instagram @cwknixJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe. Join our holiday event at thedeep.com.au/pages/events https://plus.acast.com/s/the-deep. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.