Ayahuasca is not a magic bullet for healing. While it helps us see what is possible and paves a new path, the work has only just begun after sitting through ceremony. The work continues when you go home. This podcast I discuss what ayahuasca has created for me & the healing work she has done with me. I then discuss the synchronicities after coming home, the reconnection with my father, and what is in store for me in 2020. It includes learning more about and having more of Her in my life in 2020.|| Ｉｎｔｅｇｒａｔｉｏｎ || High up on a mountain in wild Costa Rica, the moon illuminated through my bedroom window. At 3am I lie awake on the tile floor wrapped up in a big, blue blanket One foot on this dimension of earth. One foot on a dimension of spirit. More clarity, peace & understanding filled my mind, body & soul than ever before. So much made sense. Drinking ayahuasca 3x was the most challenging & perspective shifting experiences of my life. I woke the fuck up. Not only cognitively but somatically. Now that I'm home, the work is not done. It must be integrated back into the day-to-day to truly be life-altering & mean something. To bring the healing lessons & elixir into the world. Who I thought I was, is different than who I actually am. I thought I was just a shy, meek, quiet girl who didn't have anything important to say. I found peace & power in my gentle demeanor. Who I really am is a compassionate yet fierce warrior. Brave & courageous for continuously stepping out into the unknown. I have embodied radical self-love. I used to think I was separate, But feeling the unbounded cosmos in my soul. Helped me embody & remember that I am a part & connected to it all. I thought that there were limited possibilities, But really there are infinite. I was locking myself in a single jail cell. When the keys were right in front of me the whole time. Infinite keys to open infinite doors. There is an eternal cosmic hope & trust always available to me. I used to think success meant more status, more wealth, more worldly security. That I had to prove myself to be successful. Now the drive for this has vanished. I am here to participate in the healing of this planet. The coming alive of the world. To make things more energetic. Integration only starts with accepting these truths IN relationship. To slowly bring in the trust, surrender, connection, possibility, hope, optimism, humility, forgiveness, understanding, empowerment & unconditional self-love I found. Into my relationships to everything here on earth. This narrative is weaving me. I'm not weaving it. Now I only ask, How can we create each other?New Life Ayahuasca:https://www.newlifeayahuasca.com/Be sure to listen to previous episodes in this series:Episode 1: This episode comes in three parts, how I felt right after booking the retreat to costa rica 3 months prior, part 2 is recorded just hours before my first Aya ceremony, and part 3 is recorded the night after my first Aya ceremony explaining exactly what went downEpisode 2: I sit down with New Life Ayahuasca's Ayahuasquero, Matthew MormelloEpisode 3: The podcast after that I give the tale of Kambo and night 2 of drinking AyahuascaEpisode 4: Night 3's incredible experience