Sometimes every thing just works out. Life is great! But then there are the other times. We suffer, we mourn, we hurt. The church as told us to get over it. But that is not from God. The Bible is full of stories of hurting people. Many Psalms contain lament. There is even a book of it - Lamentations. It is ok for you to be hurting. It is not a reflection on your faith. You can call out to God in your pain. You can ask him why he has not showed up. God can take it, and you need to express it.