What happens when you get the worst call of your life? The worst call imaginable for any parent? What do you do? How do you cope?Today Jay shares her story of losing her precious son Jaike to suicide.You will hear how brave she is, how much she loves talking about her boy and you will also hear the whole way through, how cathartic but also how hard it is for her to speak about these moments. How her life is forever fractured and will never be the same without him.Content warning: this episode discusses suicide, domestic violence, depression and miscarriage. Help services are listed below.Lifeline 13 11 14For domestic violence assistance please call 1800 RespectMiscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.au and SANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe. Join our holiday event at thedeep.com.au/pages/events https://plus.acast.com/s/the-deep. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.