You know that cliche about being in a crowded room but still feeling all alone? Sometimes I think the person that came up with that imagery was talking about being on a dancefloor in a gay bar. Cause, yeah, there's so much to celebrate there - a room full of people who get to be themselves for the evening. But, there can also be a feeling of disconnect or outsider-ness... And, even though that's probably all inside your head, it's still a very real feeling in the moment. I got to explore this, and other things, in this week's chat with Manish Mathur, who is the host of 'It Pod To Be You' a movie review podcast that is all about romantic films! We got together to talk about the New York bar Rush, and along the way we chat about the perils or appearing straight, narrow-minded gay men, and what it feels like to always be the fifth wheel! Do you have any memories of Rush, or clubbing from your own scene that you want to share? Well, if you have please get in touch - I want to create the biggest online record of people's memories and stories - go to www.lostspacespodcast.com and find the section 'Share a Lost Space' and tell me what you got up to! Bonus points for embarrassing photos! You can also find me on Facebook (www.facebook.com/lostspacespod), Instagram (www.instagram.com/lostspacespod) and Twitter (www.twitter.com/lostspacespod) Find out more about Manish by listening to It Pod to be You, or following him on Twitter (https://twitter.com/vertigay314)